Days 2 and 3 (October 27th and 28th 2011)

Hello friends..

I didn't post yesterday because I felt very crappy.  My knee has been acting up and I didn't get to go to the Y like I wanted on Thursday.  Diet wise I did good though.  This morning (Friday) I woke up in a lot of pain and my knee was so bad I couldn't even get out of bed.  I figured it would be another day I couldn't exercise.  As the day went on, I rested a bit.  Ate good, been drinking my 70+ ounces of water daily.  I did a few exercises but I couldn't do much.  As the day went on I decided this evening I was going to the gym.  I had to because I want to look and feel good.

I got to the Y and it wasn't busy at all which I love.  I did 3 and a half miles on the bike, went and used the weights and leg machines, did 5 minutes on the treadmill (can't do more than that otherwise my ankles get bad) and then did another 2 and a half miles on the bike.  I was sweating like crazy but it felt great!  I can't wait to go back and get in another workout.  I'm hoping I see some results :)

Day 1: Wednesday October 26th 2011

Well, today I weighed myself..The scale said I am 152.2  It makes me sick to write it but I want all of you who are reading this to know. I don't understand how.  A week ago I was 143. I guess during my flare up when I couldn't exercise I gained.  It made me sick to see that number.  For breakfast I had 3/4 cups of Honey Nut Cheerios and 3 pineapple slices.  After breakfast, I danced to 5 songs on the Just Dance 2 Wii Game.  After I did about 10 minutes of the Exercise TV show.  I still have two more workouts to complete before the day is over.  I didn't eat lunch yet and it's almost 5pm.  I try to eat but I physically get sick.  Doesn't seem worth eating a yogurt right now when it's almost dinner time.  I guess if I'm hungry later tonight I can eat it as a snack. 

Tomorrow I'm going to the YMCA to try out their Silver Sneakers class.  It's a class designed for older people but since I'm limited in what I can do because of my JRA I thought it would be worth trying out.  I'm also going to the pool tomorrow night.  My joints need it and I can get in an excellent workout without pain.  Hopefully the class goes well and I can have something new to look forward to.

My self esteem has been real bad.  Over the years I've been called some pretty bad things.  I have wonderful friends, family and the greatest boyfriend who make me feel better about myself but there's still that negative I hear and feel.  I need to stop comparing myself to every other girl out there.  My thoughts eat at me.  "She's prettier," "She's skinnier", "Why would someone be with me when they can have that?!".  I love my personality yes, but I want my body and looks to look good too and there's nothing wrong with that.  I want to wear those cute skirts or short shorts, pretty dresses, an actual 2 piece bathing suit.  I want to look in the mirror and say "Wow, I look good" and not get sick like I do now when I look in the mirror.

I didn't take a photo like I wanted today because my camera needs to be charged but I'll post one this week, I promise.  Thanks to whoever that is reading this :)

The beginning..

Welcome to my blog..

My name is Ryan and I'm 24 years old.  I'm going through a lifestyle change and am turning to blogging to help me while losing the weight I need to lose.  This journey isn't going to be easy because I have Juvenile Rheumatoid Arthritis which affects all of my joints and makes it sometimes impossible to workout.  I belong to the YMCA and use their pool so I can do exercise that is low-impact on my joints.  I will be posting photos along the way so you can see the transformations as they occur. The photo above was taken on Sunday October 23rd 2011. I will weigh myself tomorrow (Wednesday 10/26) and will actually post my weight and goals on here.. This is a big step.. Thank you all for the support :) Much love!